You never know when inspiration will hit.
I am a big fan of the podcast, “Perfectly Imperfect” by Christine Chen and Regina Fang.
Today’s topic: Soulmates & Love Languages.
It. Struck. A. Cord.
I went to college in Sacramento, but moved back to the Bay Area after I graduated.
When I graduated, it ended rather… abruptly.
I graduated on December 20th, 2013.
By Dec 22nd, I was moved out of my apartment, even though I still had one semester left on my lease. It went by so quick, I never felt I celebrated my accomplishment. Although I had a graduation dinner the night of my graduation, it didn’t feel enough.
It forced me to close a door on a chapter that I wasn’t ready to close. A lot of hard work leads up this special day. How come I couldn’t celebrate that?
Fast forward to the present day.
I’m approaching the four year mark from graduating from college. I’ve been at my current job for 2 years now. I am at a point where I’ve reached as far as I can take it.
Let me rephrase that… I’ve reached as far as I’m WILLING to take it.
I’ve been searching for jobs, but haven’t had the greatest luck lately.
I wanted to start over in a new city. That “first time” feeling where you’re still figuring everything out. That is what I wanted.
It’s difficult to do when you yourself, do not know what you want career-wise. It’s that feeling of searching for something, but don’t know exactly what you’re searching for. You’re hoping to find an answer or for an opportunity to present itself and make you say “AHA! This is what I meant to do for the rest of my life.“
For a long time, I didn’t want to move back to Sacramento.
It felt like a “been there, done that” feeling. So I’ve been directing my effort to looking for jobs near where I currently live.
There was a switch. A light bulb per se.
I have visited Sacramento a handful of times over the years since I graduated.
EVERY SINGLE TIME I visit, I can’t help but be nostalgic wherever I go.
Wherever I am, I can’t help but reminisce about a memory I had there when I was in college.
It took me four years to realize that Sacramento… has another chapter for me. The “new” feeling I had been looking for, was in the place I had left it four years ago.
Yes, I wasn’t ready to end it the way it did four years ago. But I think it’s time to go back.
It’s under different circumstances. I’m at a different place in my life now. I don’t feel like the same person when I left. Fresh off graduation. Fresh off a break up. Fresh off that high of being a college grad.
“You can be a soulmates with a city.”
“When you call a city a ‘home’, there has to be an emotional attachment.”
“If I’m gonna be growing old here, I’d rather be in a city that I enjoy.”
Sacramento, you are my soulmate city.
I don’t know why I didn’t notice it before.