The three pictures above depict the “high school” versions of myself. It has been officially been 10+ years since all of the pictures were taken. I gotta say in terms of confidence and self esteem, looking back now, I don’t see a confident girl behind any of the photos. I was just going through the motions of high school life. I was self conscious at times. For years a part of me questioned, “Can I go back to how my body was back then?” I’m currently at the heaviest I’ve ever been, but strangely seek the confidence I should have had back then, with the body that I had. I distinctly remember when I was a freshman, putting on my sleeveless tennis uniform for the first time, and being self conscious of my arms.
I’m at a point in my life, where I seek the confidence, self-esteem, and energy I deserve I should have. Back then, I had the body externally, but not confidence internally.
Now the years have passed, my body has gone through weight gain, but strangely feel the confidence bubbling below the surface. Strange, how life works…
At the end of the day, I want to feel good on the inside AND the outside.
It’s time to invest in myself.