Lifestyle

Mental Health Awareness

I can admit as I write this I do have feelings of loneliness over me right now. It’s been awhile since I’ve felt that way, but it comes over me at random times.

As I’ve grown older, I have grown more mindful of my mental health. In my late teens and most of my 20s, I was well consumed into the motions of life. I can’t remember a single moment where I just sat and soaked in the present moment.

In college, of course there were social times with friends, time with S.O’s, and events to attend, but to really concentrate what I felt at my core, I didn’t provide the necessary attention I needed.

As I approach my 30s, it’s something I need to wholeheartedly prioritize. This pandemic definitely hasn’t made it the most easiest route to stay sane, but it sheds light on what can be improved in the future.

I have not been the greatest friend over the years. I look back and am definitely not the best in maintaining friendships and regret not simply checking in on people close to me.

Also, I’ve realized I’ve isolated myself from people when I’ve needed them the most. It’s definitely not a pattern I want to continue.

Looking forward, it’s baby steps that count. Whether it’s checking in on a friend I haven’t spoke to in awhile or just checking in on myself on where my mind is at, it’s a step in the right direction.

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Grow with Ro

I hit writer’s block.

It’s been exactly two months since I’ve since last posted.

Since then, I’ve focused on activities that have helped me further my personal development. To name a few:

1. Learning Korean

I started learning about 4 months ago and haven’t stopped since. I consume a lot of Korean content and listen to a lot of Korean music, so I figured why not?

2. Mindset Mentor Podcast

Ever since I’ve started listening to this podcast, it has made me dig deeper into myself. In my 20s specifically, a lot of time was spent “cruising” through life, and the podcast, in a way, has stopped me in my tracks. There are so many gems that I’ve listened to so far, and feel I found it at the right time as I approach my 30s.

3. Introduction to vegetarian/vegan food

I’ve had a vegan food subscription box for the last few months and it has definitely broadened my horizons with food. With being lactose intolerant and having acid reflux episodes from time to time, it definitely provides another alternative to meat. I’m not fully vegetarian or vegan in any way currently, but it has helped in adding more vegetables to my meals.

4. Meditation

I have tried meditation before, but have never stuck with it long term. It forces me to just sit in silence and be more intentional with my actions.

5. Running

Running provides me a time to be by myself and not be disturbed.

6. Singing Lessons

I’ve never been comfortable with my singing voice. With the exception of two performances I did in college (which were not solo), singing in public terrifies me, BUT feel that taking these lessons will DEFINITELY take me out of my comfort zone and eventually see where that takes me.

Lifestyle, Relationships

Putting Yourself Out There

It’s scary.

Last Wednesday, I attended a BTS virtual meetup for the first time and my introverted self was TERRIFIED.

(…Which is ironic since I’m an admin/receptionist and communicate with others all the time, but I digress)

The main difference is I’m voluntarily approaching the group, but in my day job it’s vice versa, I get asked questions, which as an introvert, makes the difference.

Lately, I haven’t been able to contribute to conversations as much as I’d like to (because of situations I can’t relate to) and I’m not super versed in initiating conversations in those type of environments.

As everyone knows, all these zoom/teams meetings are mainly 2 people going back and forth and others chiming in to the conversation when possible, if it’s anymore than that… it’s just people talking over each other.

With my meetup experience last Wednesday, I felt it was the first time in awhile that I’ve been able to contribute and relate to the topics going on, you know? I was surrounded by fellow fans and they were able to understand references I made and simply understand what I was talking about.

I just felt relieved.

It’s the beginning of getting out this antisocial rut I’ve been in lately.

I honestly compare it to the feeling of sticking your feet into the water for the first time to see if it’s okay to get in and much to your surprise it’s a lot more manageable to jump in, if that makes sense?

In retrospect, this is the first time I’ve searched for a social group based on common interests. All my friend circles over the years have always been a result of the environment I was in, not because we had the same interests.

In high school and college, it was individuals you’d have class with or it was because of joining a club and/or organization.

In the workplace, it’s people you directly work with, but again, there are no guarantees that interests will align.

There is a balance in both, but for me recently, there was a side of me that was unhappy not being able to share my thoughts/feelings about common interests I had.

It’s just one step closer to finding my tribe and feeling authentically myself.

Lifestyle

The Turning Point

I somewhat feel I’m in an almost 30 life crisis.

I will be moving out before the end of this year.

To where? I have yet to decide.

Do I sign an apartment lease closer to my current job?

Or move to a more affordable city and change jobs?

Decisions. Decisions. Decisions.

I have reached a point where I can no longer live under the roof of my parents, it’s just time.

I am grateful that my parents allowed me to live at home for the past 6 years. Had that not been the case, I would have not been able pay off my car and my student loans.

It’s time to prioritize my well being and be in an environment that promotes personal growth.

There is a lot of uncertainty of course. The job search is definitely not the most fun process to go through. (I.e it took me about a year to find the current job I’m in, but it’s not in the industry I see a career in)

Although I value a lot of structure, I’ve also reached another point of… do I want to work for another company?

Honestly… Not really.

So freelancing and/or being an entrepreneur is an option on the table.

I don’t really want to be on another company’s timetable anymore.

With working from home, I’ve had time to think about how precious life is, how important your health is, and also to concentrate effort on what truly makes you happy.

I can admit I am definitely one of those people that hardly takes vacations. I definitely can cross into the workaholic territory very easily.

BUT.

With this pandemic, I’m sure I’m not the only one ITCHING to travel. I caught the travel bug later in my 20s, so the pandemic sort of stopped my streak of traveling since 2016.

When the world reaches a more manageable environment to travel in or I get vaccinated or both, I definitely am booking a trip for sure. First on that list: Japan (and Korea)

I’ve been learning Korean for the past two months and would love to practice in real life and maybe learn enough Japanese to travel comfortably.

But until then, the focus now needs to be on furthering my development, both professionally and personally.

What’s most important is to have faith in my own competencies and abilities. It will not be an easy journey, but it will be worth it. Whatever’s meant to be, will be.

Health, Lifestyle

Nurturing Loneliness

If I’m completely honest, I haven’t really been inspired to write lately.

I definitely hit a stride for the past few months, but as 2021 is upon us…

*crickets*

It just hasn’t been flowing.

As I’ve mentioned before, I dubbed this year, “The Year of Transformation”

And that applies to all aspects of my life.

I’d be lying if this pandemic hasn’t affected me mentally. As my blog name suggests, I am an introvert and for most of the pandemic, I was managing well.

Being at home didn’t phase me as much, since I’m a homebody.

But as time has passed, even as I type this, I had this lonely wave come over me (possibly due to a lack of sleep last night).

If there’s one thing I want to highlight on my blog it’s the awareness of both the great times

and the not-so great times.

I am a pretty positive person, but I’m also human.

I’ve grown up knowing that being vulnerable isn’t something to show. I will hold back tears as long as I possibly can, until I can’t anymore.

I’m the type to let things build below the surface and admit I’ve caused more emotional pain to myself, by not just expressing explicitly how I felt.

As I grow older, I have to learn to just let it flow.

If I’m upset, be upset.

If I’m sad, be sad.

It’s one thing to let intense feelings build, but that also restrains me from the “good” feelings as well.

I couldn’t tell you the last time I’ve felt overwhelming feelings of happiness.

And even just typing that sentence above, I feel bad for myself.

All in all, it’s time to prioritize my happiness and not look back.

Lifestyle

When Creativity Strikes

If there’s one thing that has helped me stay sane during this quarantine, it has been painting. I’ve done a handful of “paint and sip” activities to help destress from work pre-COVID, but with the pandemic ongoing, it has helped me stay focused.

To be honest, I never really considered myself an artist growing up. Those titles go to the rest of my family: my grandmother (mother’s side), father, brother, uncle, and two of my cousins.

Maybe I am a creative at heart, but never zoned in on it for a profit.

I’ve just always enjoyed it.

Growing up, my creative side didn’t really start gaining traction until high school.

I grew up in the time of Myspace (shout out to the Top 8 lol), so customizing my profile was my thing. Making icons, backgrounds, gifs, altering photos, you name it, I did it. It even reached a point where I’d make backgrounds for friends as well.


In my previous job, I also made whiteboard art on our weekly activity whiteboard.

Creativity has always ended up finding me in one way or another.

At my current job, whenever a creative opportunity comes along, I literally enter a creative zone. Hours can go by and I don’t even notice. I’m just sucked right in. Whether if it’s creating a PowerPoint deck, designing a worksheet, it’s definitely one of those small joys that helps my day go faster at times.


To my other fellow creatives out there, what is your creative outlet? And how has it helped you during this pandemic?

Health, Lifestyle

The Year of Transformation

At the beginning of last year, I had dubbed the year 2020 as my year of happiness…

Then 2020 happened. 

We all saw how that went.

In the end, it turned 2020 into ‘The Year of Recognizing Happiness.”

What do I dub 2021? 

“The Year of Transformation”

I spent most of last year working from home as the world came to a halt, adapting just as the rest of the world was.

Taking what I’ve learned from last year, I’m determined to transform, mentally and physically.

It takes visual cues to constantly remind myself of the goals I’ve set for this year.

Bring it on 2021.

Lifestyle

Broaden your Horizons… Literally

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I wouldn’t consider myself an avid traveler by any means.

For crying out loud, the first time I flew was when I was 25.

Ever since then, it has lit a bit of a traveling bug. Traveling has always seemed to appear when my life needed it. Whether if it was right after a breakup or hitting a snag at work, traveling was an escape. Most of my traveling, in terms of flying, has been done solo. It forces myself me out of my comfort zone and be self sufficient.

Whenever I returned from a trip, I always returned on a high. It took my mind off any stresses and drama at the time.

But now with this pandemic, it made me realize, life is short.

Life is short to wait for that perfect time.

“I’ll wait to accrue time off at work”

“I’ll wait until someone can cover me at work”

For the amount of time we have on Earth, there are a lot of people that don’t get to explore or even leave the state, so at the point of my life, I’ve boxed myself in for SUCH a long time. Time to unbox!

I feel there’s just so much world out there, that would help broaden my horizons literally and figuratively speaking.

Until then, it’s a lot of planning and racking up credit card points, but ultimately seeing what else the world has in store.

Lifestyle

(20)20 Things I’ve Learned This Year

As 2020 comes to a close, I’ve learned the following:

  1. To not take things for granted.
  2. Health is wealth.
  3. Don’t lose sight things of things that make you happy.
  4. Collective effort is better than individual effort.
  5. Travel more, when the chance permits.
  6. Every minute concentrating on others’ efforts is one minute not invested in your own life.
  7. Don’t be afraid to be yourself.
  8. There needs to be a sense of vulnerability or discomfort to grow.
  9. The past is in the past for a reason.
  10. Be wary of people’s opinions. It sometimes isn’t about you, its their projection.
  11. If something isn’t working, pivot.
  12. If doors aren’t opening, build your own door.
  13. Life will always have its ups and downs. Dust yourself off and move on.
  14. Boundaries are healthy.
  15. Go outside more often.
  16. Express yourself freely.
  17. Simplify to amplify.
  18. Skincare is the ultimate self care activity.
  19. Meaningful conversations can go a long way.
  20. Be more nice to yourself.

What’s the most important lesson you have learned this year?

Lifestyle

The Endless Scroll

Have you ever caught yourself endlessly scrolling?

Through Instagram, LinkedIn, Facebook, Twitter…

And then you realize it’s been 2 hours.

What are the reasons behind the scroll?

It may vary from person to person, but for me it was fear of missing out (FOMO).

Missing out on the new things, new happenings, seeing life updates from those I know.

But then over time, you start to question… Why?

Why am I scrolling…

and scrolling…

and scrolling…

and not exactly taking in all the information I’m seeing?

It gets addicting and you don’t even realize it. I’ve done some social detoxing in the past, months at a time, but somehow get back on it again.

Here I am doing it again (with the exception of WordPress of course).

Time to fill my down time with personal growth.