I can admit as I write this I do have feelings of loneliness over me right now. It’s been awhile since I’ve felt that way, but it comes over me at random times.
As I’ve grown older, I have grown more mindful of my mental health. In my late teens and most of my 20s, I was well consumed into the motions of life. I can’t remember a single moment where I just sat and soaked in the present moment.
In college, of course there were social times with friends, time with S.O’s, and events to attend, but to really concentrate what I felt at my core, I didn’t provide the necessary attention I needed.
As I approach my 30s, it’s something I need to wholeheartedly prioritize. This pandemic definitely hasn’t made it the most easiest route to stay sane, but it sheds light on what can be improved in the future.
I have not been the greatest friend over the years. I look back and am definitely not the best in maintaining friendships and regret not simply checking in on people close to me.
Also, I’ve realized I’ve isolated myself from people when I’ve needed them the most. It’s definitely not a pattern I want to continue.
Looking forward, it’s baby steps that count. Whether it’s checking in on a friend I haven’t spoke to in awhile or just checking in on myself on where my mind is at, it’s a step in the right direction.